Today God told me that he loved me. It really felt good to hear that. I’ve been feeling like a bad person lately like I’m not doing my job as a christian and not taking care of myself. It’s funny how easily we think that God gets mad at us and stops loving us and wants to withdraw his love based on our performance.

Nothing could be farther from the truth. I was feeling depressed and lonely and it was putting me into a bad mood. I was not aware that I was fearing that God was mad at me. When he told me that he loved me it was such a relief. I had no idea I was carrying that weight around.

I’m so glad I took the time to respond to his calling on my heart today. His love is so much bigger than we can imagine and it’s perfect. No hidden control or manipulation. No guilt. Our performance doesn’t effect how he feels about us.


He Loves Our Love

He Loves Our Love … 

The atmosphere was filled with his presence. Voices raised in worship and adoration. The worship band was taking a few minutes to just soak in the love of God. The chorus continued in the phrase Hallelujah, Hallelujah .. that’s when I saw a beautiful picture of Jesus.

He was standing in the throne room smiling and smiling and smiling and taking in every bit of love that was directed at him. I could feel his heart rejoicing in the moment just soaking up the praise.

It was then that I saw it. He needs our love too! God created us because he was lonely. He created us because he wanted children to share all the love he had. I’ve been in relationships with people who couldn’t  receive the love I had for them. Isn’t having someone receive our love part of the joy?

God want’s a reciprocal relationship with us. He loves to be loved just as we do. The big difference is that he is perfect in his giving and receiving. He gives and receives with out conditions.

The Solid Rock

The Walls …

I’m like a boxer. Holding my gloves up in front of my face to protect myself from the 1-2 punch that’s coming. I’m looking for the opening to deliver my own right jab to my opponet. My gloves are my protection. My gloves are my walls.

My walls include, fear, anger, disappointment, insecurity, un-forgiveness .. I’ve had them for so many years and I’ve given them to God so many times.

My walls keep me from loving people.

It all points to rejection.

Years and years of childhood spent waiting for the criticism, the insult, the pain, the rejction. Years of putting my arms up in defence. Building walls to protect myself. Shutting people out and finding fault with them before they can hurt me. It’s a habit that has been diffcult to break.

I bravely gave these things over to God again today trusting him to be my protection. I asked him just how was he going to protect me? I ask him .. How can you stop people from rejecting me?

He said ..

I can’t stop someone from rejecting you but, if you build your house on the solid rock, when the winds blow and the storms prevail, nothing can tear it down.


That made me smile. Then I said – “Just how does one go about building on the solid rock”? He pointed out to me that building your self esteem in people, looking to them to be kind, or accepting and holding you up is building on the sand. People are not going to be able to give you something solid. Going to God for your self esteem and love is the solid rock.

He wants us to be able to withstand the harsh winds of rejection.  The stones and arrows of the world are going to come. We need to be solid so those arrows bounce off and then the world can see his light through us.

Better Than Gold!

My Thought for the Day ..gold-bullion

I get focused on keeping up with the Jones’s. I see what my neighbors have and I think that I’m not doing something right in my life because I don’t have as much “stuff”.

The Holy Spirit gave me a bit of wisdom today about that. I always forget that the ways of the kingdom are backward to the ways of the world. It feels so awkward because we were raised in the ideals of the world .. but here is what he said to me ..

In the kingdom relationship with God is the greatest. We look at material things as the greatest or the sign of success. But in the kingdom, relationship with God is the highest. Material wealth  is an outward sign that anyone in the world can achieve.

God wants us to put him first. It’s better than any gold on this earth.

Be Patient With Yourself

Be Patient With Yourself …

I was feeling kinda down today, thinking about things in my life that I was not happy with. Seems I always want more than I’ve got. Here is what I heard from the Lord today about my situation. I hope this encourages you!

Sometimes life is solitary. Sometimes there are things you have to do on your own. It doesn’t mean that you are unloveable or unimportant. It just means that you have things to learn on your journey. When its time to add people to that journey they will come.

There are so many steps to take. like a baby learning to walk. Their parents hold them up while they are weak but soon they are standing and then running. You too will run. And you will have strength in your wings.

So be patient on this journey. Be patient with yourself. Be glad with every step. Congratulate yourself on the small things you accomplish. Don’t be mad because you didn’t accomplish the big thing in one day.

Be proud to stand on your own two feet. You are a child of God!DSC_0029


Humility is like a flower. A flower that is soft and beautiful. Humility is like a bird in a nest feeding her chicks. Humility is all about helping others.

Humility is knowing who you are and yet lifting others up.

Like a gentle rain or a sunrise. It doesn’t have to make excuses or wave a flag.

Humility is like love … Like a dove


Beauty For Ashes

This is a really good thought for me today. We all have dreams that just fail or explode or just don’t take off sometimes. The only constant in the world is God. He will always be the same even when people let us down.Beauty-for-Ashes-1 People WILL let us down. Letting go of the broken dream is hard, trusting again can be hard. I love that God is in the redemption business.

I saw this from Joel Osteen today ..

The scripture says, “God will give you beauty for ashes.” Ashes represent our broken dreams, our failures, our disappointments and our hurts. Here’s the key: you have to let go of the ashes before you can receive the beauty. If you won’t let go of the old, you can’t receive the new.