Today God told me that he loved me. It really felt good to hear that. I’ve been feeling like a bad person lately like I’m not doing my job as a christian and not taking care of myself. It’s funny how easily we think that God gets mad at us and stops loving us and wants to withdraw his love based on our performance.
Nothing could be farther from the truth. I was feeling depressed and lonely and it was putting me into a bad mood. I was not aware that I was fearing that God was mad at me. When he told me that he loved me it was such a relief. I had no idea I was carrying that weight around.
I’m so glad I took the time to respond to his calling on my heart today. His love is so much bigger than we can imagine and it’s perfect. No hidden control or manipulation. No guilt. Our performance doesn’t effect how he feels about us.
I get focused on keeping up with the Jones’s. I see what my neighbors have and I think that I’m not doing something right in my life because I don’t have as much “stuff”.
The Holy Spirit gave me a bit of wisdom today about that. I always forget that the ways of the kingdom are backward to the ways of the world. It feels so awkward because we were raised in the ideals of the world .. but here is what he said to me ..
In the kingdom relationship with God is the greatest. We look at material things as the greatest or the sign of success. But in the kingdom, relationship with God is the highest. Material wealth is an outward sign that anyone in the world can achieve.
God wants us to put him first. It’s better than any gold on this earth.
This is a really good thought for me today. We all have dreams that just fail or explode or just don’t take off sometimes. The only constant in the world is God. He will always be the same even when people let us down. People WILL let us down. Letting go of the broken dream is hard, trusting again can be hard. I love that God is in the redemption business.
I saw this from Joel Osteen today ..
The scripture says, “God will give you beauty for ashes.” Ashes represent our broken dreams, our failures, our disappointments and our hurts. Here’s the key: you have to let go of the ashes before you can receive the beauty. If you won’t let go of the old, you can’t receive the new.
I don’t normally make a fuss over Good Friday. This year it fell on the day that I go to my church small group. We decided to do communion that night and commemorate Good Friday. As we were sitting in reflection, I got this really cool vision. I saw a woman with a pail and some clothes in her hands walking down a path towards the tomb where Jesus’s body had been put after the crucifixion.
As she was headed towards the tomb, there were some men standing in front of it. They were Pharisees. They were speaking to one another and one of them said to the other … Be sure to use a really big stone in front of the tomb. We don’t want anyone to think someone came and stole the body.
Then I heard the voice of God laughing and saying .. Yes, Be sure to use a really big stone in front of the tomb!
He wanted to be sure that this miracle would be seen as a miracle and not an act of man!
Life goes on forever. There is no death for us now. This life we are living now is only the beginning. The life after this one is the real life. I wrote a song about it a few years ago. What a great feeling to know that life goes on forever …
Sit back and have a listen …. The lyrics are below ..
Today as I sat quietly with God, I heard him say … I’m proud of you. I could feel his love for me. He is not worried or taking my inventory. So often I catch myself worrying about not being good enough or letting someone down. My imagination goes wild thinking that I’m being judged. There are probably people out there who are doing that. I’m sure I’ve picked up the vibe from some of them.
But mainly I put the pressure on myself. I think we transfer those feelings over to God. That’s what causes us to hide from him. Our fear that we are not perfect.
My sense from God this morning was just love. He is not disappointed in me and he is not worried. He is not picking me apart or keeping a record of all my shortcomings.
In the words of my Aussie friends … No Worries Mate!
I’ve been bummed lately going on the internet. It seems like every post I see is about someone who has more than me in just about every way. I’m seeing bigger cars, better jobs, more achievement and just people appearing to have more accomplished lives.
I start to feel old too because I see these really young people stepping into huge opportunities that were not available to me at a young age. I feel like my time is over and why keep going.
These are all thoughts from the enemy camp.
In my quiet time today Jesus tells me that time is irrelevant in the kingdom. Our spirit and our souls have no age. He says this is not a competition. Its not about beating out another person to win the prize. Its not about being on top of the mountain and getting the most toys.
He says that your life is a journey. A beautiful special journey that is tailor made just for you. There will be struggles and victories. There will be high’s and low’s. The idea is to just keep going and remember that this life is not just about doing things. It’s about being in a relationship with him. Getting your life from him so that you can be so full that you have so much to give. Everything about God is about getting full to give .. that includes money too. He told me that he does not hate money. It’s what you do with it that counts.