Today God told me that he loved me. It really felt good to hear that. I’ve been feeling like a bad person lately like I’m not doing my job as a christian and not taking care of myself. It’s funny how easily we think that God gets mad at us and stops loving us and wants to withdraw his love based on our performance.
Nothing could be farther from the truth. I was feeling depressed and lonely and it was putting me into a bad mood. I was not aware that I was fearing that God was mad at me. When he told me that he loved me it was such a relief. I had no idea I was carrying that weight around.
I’m so glad I took the time to respond to his calling on my heart today. His love is so much bigger than we can imagine and it’s perfect. No hidden control or manipulation. No guilt. Our performance doesn’t effect how he feels about us.
The atmosphere was filled with his presence. Voices raised in worship and adoration. The worship band was taking a few minutes to just soak in the love of God. The chorus continued in the phrase Hallelujah, Hallelujah .. that’s when I saw a beautiful picture of Jesus.
He was standing in the throne room smiling and smiling and smiling and taking in every bit of love that was directed at him. I could feel his heart rejoicing in the moment just soaking up the praise.
It was then that I saw it. He needs our love too! God created us because he was lonely. He created us because he wanted children to share all the love he had. I’ve been in relationships with people who couldn’treceive the love I had for them. Isn’t having someone receive our love part of the joy?
God want’s a reciprocal relationship with us. He loves to be loved just as we do. The big difference is that he is perfect in his giving and receiving. He gives and receives with out conditions.
I get focused on keeping up with the Jones’s. I see what my neighbors have and I think that I’m not doing something right in my life because I don’t have as much “stuff”.
The Holy Spirit gave me a bit of wisdom today about that. I always forget that the ways of the kingdom are backward to the ways of the world. It feels so awkward because we were raised in the ideals of the world .. but here is what he said to me ..
In the kingdom relationship with God is the greatest. We look at material things as the greatest or the sign of success. But in the kingdom, relationship with God is the highest. Material wealth is an outward sign that anyone in the world can achieve.
God wants us to put him first. It’s better than any gold on this earth.
This is a really good thought for me today. We all have dreams that just fail or explode or just don’t take off sometimes. The only constant in the world is God. He will always be the same even when people let us down. People WILL let us down. Letting go of the broken dream is hard, trusting again can be hard. I love that God is in the redemption business.
I saw this from Joel Osteen today ..
The scripture says, “God will give you beauty for ashes.” Ashes represent our broken dreams, our failures, our disappointments and our hurts. Here’s the key: you have to let go of the ashes before you can receive the beauty. If you won’t let go of the old, you can’t receive the new.
Life goes on forever. There is no death for us now. This life we are living now is only the beginning. The life after this one is the real life. I wrote a song about it a few years ago. What a great feeling to know that life goes on forever …
Sit back and have a listen …. The lyrics are below ..
Today as I sat quietly with God, I heard him say … I’m proud of you. I could feel his love for me. He is not worried or taking my inventory. So often I catch myself worrying about not being good enough or letting someone down. My imagination goes wild thinking that I’m being judged. There are probably people out there who are doing that. I’m sure I’ve picked up the vibe from some of them.
But mainly I put the pressure on myself. I think we transfer those feelings over to God. That’s what causes us to hide from him. Our fear that we are not perfect.
My sense from God this morning was just love. He is not disappointed in me and he is not worried. He is not picking me apart or keeping a record of all my shortcomings.
In the words of my Aussie friends … No Worries Mate!
Here is a fun song that I wrote a few years back on my FLY HIGH BUTTERFLY Cd. It’s based on a relationship that I wanted and was encouraged to be in some some leader type people. It was not a healthy relationship and I should have listened to God when he told me that it had poison in it .. oh well, live and learn.
I also got the idea from Facebook. I thought it was funny when people posted they were in a complicated relationship. Being the nosy type that I am, I wondered what was going on in those relationships … sooooo I wrote about mine.